If I had a say, I’d say don’t dwell on it. I have friends I dearly love, consider family. Would and have done just about anything for. I talk about them all the time and talk them up to people... and I hardly ever call or text them. Some I know are busy people or have their own stuff going on or don’t want to be a bother, I might not know what time is best, and mostly though... that’s just not me. I’m bad at keeping in touch. I’ll not talk to a good friend for 10 years and pick up where I left off. They can call me after a decade and ask a favor and they’ll get it. We will have lunch after or dinner, hang out. It’ll be a blast. I still won’t call them or text them most likely. They are often the same way. It’s nothing personal. It’s just the way it is sometimes with some people.
I know others who have social anxiety or mental issues they deal with. That’s their struggle and it isn’t about the other person- it’s about them and what they can handle. As I’ve gotten older- most people I know stop contacting each other less and less unless there is a problem or some business- then we take care of it and we use it as an excuse to hang out.
Whatever the case is- I would say to you, in my opinion, to try not to let yourself feel negative about it. There are MANY reasons for why you’d have to be first to make contact. I don’t see it important who contacts who- just that a person is willing to engage upon being contacted if able, or at least acknowledge the contact. Our value as friends and humans can’t be judged on how often someone else contacts us first. I’m sure you’re well liked and cared for even if your friends don’t show it in the ways you’d like. Friends don’t stay friends if they don’t want to. No obligation. If people stay your friend then they are friends.
You mean like this?
@awake_ash You don't come off as a boring person at all