Even the greatest artists are often their own toughest critics. We are all works in progress. I think the idea of “loving yourself” is often taken too literally- to a point of narcissism even. It’s more like- we aren’t perfect and we should be ok with ourselves in the fact that we aren’t perfect- forgive ourselves those places we aren’t perfect and try to be the person we would be a fan of- but know it’s a journey and not a destination. When others see value in us, it’s ok to acknowledge that value even if it isn’t where we expect or want ourselves to be. Even if we don’t feel like we are even trying to be a “better us” that’s sometimes ok too- right now isn’t forever. We may wish we found a place sooner, but we find it when we find it. If you aren’t a fan you aren’t- but not being a fan also doesn’t mean you need to be a detractor. Just support yourself even when you aren’t a fan.
@sca.. ahem... @..man.. (oo) .. um.. @dingo? Even if I am the most worthless piece of trash in the world ... and that is asking a LOT considering the world.. I've helped people. They bitched when I did, they bitched after... their family and friends bitched and some threatened me. But.. one man, literally told everyone he met, that I saved his life. Stage 4 cancer, 104 fever, just wanted to die. I sat in his living room watching MASH with him until he finally gave in because I wouldn't leave until he went to hospital to treat the infection. He lived 4 more years, got sober, worked to pay his family out of debt... left them a little nest egg. That man treated me better than my own family, so I will never regret doing that job (vol fire fighter/ emt). If I am nothing but cannon fodder, at least I can take the bullet that would've killed another. So I keep standing against that wall. No one can knock me down but me; and I try... but I keep getting up, because have more people to save.
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